December ♥

Today is the first of December. And I am pretty stoked. November was good to me. But I'm glad its over. My Thanksgiving was pretty good. Considering I was sick, along with everyone else I knew. To all who were sick that week, I hope you are feeling a lot better now. I know I am.

Back to December. I am excited. Why? well, hopefully it will actually start to feel like Winter. Christmas music! Christmas Trees, Christmas lights, Nativity Scenes, Fireplaces, and well ya know, Christmas!!

Now, I don't want to mislead you into thinking that I absolutely love everything about this season...because I do not. And I have been thinking about it a lot lately. I mean, how can I not?

'Tis the season of feeling lonely for me. As it is for most of my fellow single ladies, I assume.

It is also the season for me to yet again, trust in my Lord that he's got everything under control. Including my love life. Which has become harder and harder to let go of and give to God as I am getting older. Not that I had much control of it before. But, realizing that my plans mean nothing. And trusting that if the Lord wants me to be single for life then I can be okay with that. If He wants me married at 30, I can also be okay with that. If he wants me to have 3 kids or no kids...I can also be okay with that. This is also waaaaay easier said than done. I mean how awesome would it be to finally be in a God loving relationship during Christmas and New Years?! It would be pretty awesome. 

As much as I would love to have that, I would also love to fall more in Love with God. And I think that is what He wants me to do right now. To fall deeper in love with Him. Because obviously I haven't learned that His love is enough for me. 

I was listening to some Christmas music (finally) on my way to a baby shower today. It was David Crowder Bands - O Holy Night. A song I have heard many, many times each Christmas season for 22 years. Except today as I was singing a-long I couldn't help but get teary eyed as I actually listened to what I was singing.

"Truly He taught us to love one another,

His law is love and his gospel is peace.

Chains he shall break, for the slave is our brother.

And in His name all oppression shall cease.

Hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,

with all our hearts we praise His holy name."

At that moment, with tears in my eyes is when I remembered why I loved Christmas. Why I loved  our God. Then singing to the rest of the album was way more awesomer. yes, I just said awesomer. 

For the month of December, as I listen to my Christmas music, feeling lonely and sad for myself because I am still single, I pray that I can be reminded of His love and that it is enough. And that I am fully capable of trusting Him with that area of my life. 

♥L

p.s- If you haven't listened to David Crowder Bands Christmas Album- Oh For Joy, I recommend that you do. I personally love it. Traditional Christmas songs with their little twist to it. Amazing.  If you don't believe me, listen to it yourself.